I’m sorry for venting again must get annoying. I’m so sick of getting treated like shit by people on minitoon. I had to sit while my boyfriend was dying and I couldn’t do anything. And I was told to fucking kill myself. The entire time I was trying to be so nice to cheer you guys up and be funny, make jokes, sorry I was too immature I guess!? But I’ve been grieving for so long. When I got a doc about me and told to kms when I was at my lowest I didn’t talk shit behind your guys backs I wasn’t an asshole about it!? I’ve attemted 5 times in the past three years and I wish Atleast one of them worked because everyday I get reminded that I barely have any friends and that hey maybe my life isn’t worth living. My mom disowned me in 15 I’m fucking 15 and living out of other peoples houses just because my mom doesn’t want kids anymore, I’m stuck carring for my sister, I was homeless for months, I got sexually assaulted over and over and over and over again and I never said a word, so I’m sorry I says “balls” what a terrible fucking thing so fucking bad so so so bad I just can’t take it anymore it’s so hard to be so nice to everyone while you guys are assholes to me I lost everyone I loved in my life and never brought it up but I’m still a fucking attention seeker!? I shouldn’t be posting this but keeping it to myself makes it worse. 13 year old me used this website to share my art while I was getting sa’d everyday finnick was the only person who appreciated me who cared and he’s dead and I know he’s dead and he’s gone and forever and I can’t help that I’m like this I’m sorry but he’s gone and I still can’t handle it it’s been years and I still can’t fucking get over it I joke about it but I feel terrible I love him so much and I wish I’d die just to be with him because I hate I hate how I was so fucking distant to him I hate how I just ruin shit and I’m so sorry I just don’t want him to be gone I really miss him

Dear minitoon the people you look up to are assholes real assholes