Ok this I will use as a relief, a few hours ago I was talking to one of my friends, who for the moment was sad and told me that he wanted to kill himself. I told him it wasn’t right for him to think that, and I started saying things to make him feel better. Among those messages he said, "Are you telling me not to kill myself, when you used to cut yourself? Hell, you couldn’t get help for yourself, let alone me." He knew how bad I felt and why I did it, but I don’t know why he said it. I couldn’t find the reason, and there was no need to mention it. I laughed and continued as if nothing had happened. I spent the rest of the day thinking about what he said and I don’t know whether to talk to him.