What if they have a reason? What if I'm not ready for this?

Who will listen to me if I am a man, because I must be someone strong.

Because nobody understands me?
Why does everyone say they will be there to help me, but there is nothing when I need it?

No one understands me because the reason I feel this way is because of work, school, and my own guilt.

Because no one knows that in life you have to be prepared to be strong, but I honestly can't resist behaving like a normal human.

I am not a cartoon character, nor from a series. I have emotions, I'm not like them, I can't suppress my problems, just die.

I don't need your pity either because I know you don't care about me, you only care about knowing that I won't be there for you and making you laugh.

This pain is constant and seems to want to kill me.

Seeing myself in the mirror is a sad feeling, I notice how my shine is fading every time and I can't do anything to avoid it.

I can't go back to that in life, I won't fight again, however, I know I could change at least this pain.