one of my closest friends had asked me earlier if we wanted to do a run on dw and I got rlly happy bc I ask her a lot and she always either forgets, or plays with her online friends.

I asked if she could wait 10 minutes for me to ease my headache, I came back 30 minutes later and she was alr in a run.. and her reasoning was that she said 30 minutes was rlly long and she couldn't wait

luckily my friend and her bf gladly went on some runs with me to help me feel better, I even got soulvester!!

when we came back to a lobby both that friend that ditched me and a friend I haven't talked to since I attempted bc he said something that sounded very dismissive of my feelings joined.

they were the last ppl I needed to see. I had to mute myself in that call I was in bc I was crying so much, I also got surrounded by a bunch of ppl in the lobby bc my friends were surronding me. stressed me tf out, I couldn't stop crying bc I've practically ruined my relationship with these amazing ppl in my life

me and that friend, with her it just feels so one sided at this point, my friend told them that we didn't want to do a run with them and they left

I love my friend so much but... it feels like she doesn't care about me anymore. Im too dependent on others to just let it go that she doesn't want or can spend time with me. I just cant let go. but she said she was sorry but I cant believe it. I'm such a fucking nuisance to her, she just won't say it.