Yes, I admit, this is a vent. I’ve always wanted to become a police officer / cop ever since I was little, but the more I grew up, my health wasn’t too good, I often felt anemic most of the time, there were a couple times where I actually fainted as well. And my dream of becoming a cop, well, I gave up on it, though irl I also don’t want to admit that I might still want to become one, but here’s the thing: #1 I’m anemic, #2 I get lightheaded easily, #3 I’m too nice, #4 I am a slow person, sometimes I tend to have late reactions, #5 I can’t stand up for myself completely. “A closed mouth don’t get fed,” a thing I learned from my mom, it means that I can’t have what I want if I don’t speak up. My mom’s said this multiple, multiple times, and I still can’t speak up for myself. And #6, I have social anxiety, so I tend to struggle having conversations with people / trying to talk to people, even if it’s just a little “excuse me” or “I’m sorry.”