I've had no one to vent to not even my parents or therapist since they turn it into something religious or a lecture. Sometimes my mental health is used as a joke in my family or a way to be called dramatic or an attention seeker when I was diagnosed with autism I was told to seek god, not medicine for my depression and other stuff. My brain gets so crowded I'm not aware of much. I don't feel grief when someone close to me dies. My anxiety gets worse and worse every day. I don't know how to act, speak, or be a normal person without making people uncomfortable. I get beaten by people at school when I say something wrong (though I'm 90% sure it's racially motivated) It gets so mad the only thing I can turn to is S/H I can't tell peoples tones so I always think everyone is pissed off when they talk to me. At the same time I don't know who I'm really friends with online because I don't know if it just counts as acquaintances. The only reason I became a satanist was when I was studying the religion and learned what it was about learned how its about treating people like PEOPLE instead of everyone being just a lesser pawn to a god.