(trigger warning) venting to yall since i trust you guys and I dont trust therapy (i wont archive)
@GooberontheWebWorld
(trigger warning) venting to yall since i trust you guys and I dont trust therapy (i wont archive)
at this point I feel like I have ADHD, I can’t even sit down and pay attention for 10 minutes without zoning out and not pay attention, and I keep getting fed stupid lies like “I’m smart” or some bullshit, and if I see someone mention therapy, I don’t fucking trust that shit, I don’t wanna sit there spilling my misery out on a person for a hour and have them gossip or do whatever the fuck with that info and feed me lies, all I’ve been doing since i got sick with Covid was rot away whenever I can, eating whatever, watching tv, and play games, I just want this shit to end but I can’t I’ve gotten so used to this stupid little cycle that it’s now grown on me, and if I get fed stupid lies or even get blamed for something I might not even have control of, I swear to fucking god I’m gonna do it for real this time, I’m just fucking sick of this and it’s either I get properly evaluated for ADHD and get medicated, I keep rotting away and just don’t fucking do anything, or I’m going to stop thinking about it and finally feel what it’s like when it leaks out of me
(I just wanted to vent a lil bit sorry guys)