i hate my scars (from sh) so much- i try to cover them by pulling my sleaves down, wearing bracelets, or hiding my arm behind my back or covering it w my other hand but its getting exhausting- im prse etty sure im like uh- 7 weeks? so like a month and 3/4?(dec 4th) im not sure but im doing better at not doing sh and stuff. last times was really bad though- ik its my fault for hurtting myself but then again i now realize thats how my body(skin) will be like until i die..

i can still feel the pain, like actual pain- each time smth touches those scars , they burn like a fire ant or something getting strectched while lit on fire. im not sure if its just me.

when i look at my arm i cant for to long bc others migth notice, and ik my mom already knows and i told her i wouldnt do it anymore aand i feel bad so bad. bc i had still done it w.o her knowing.. i wish i didnt do it that last time.. it really really scared my arm up.. and ik that i prob wont do (hopefully wont) sh in the future,, it feels enjoyble in the moment but after, its not able to be put into words (my pov atleast).

its like these bright white slices that wont go away because thats exactly what they are.
i also kinda lost the blade soooooo... thats good ig.

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