Dearest Priyan (aka my real name which is so pretty and am thankful to have this name) ,
You are a strong lad, truly. At one point in life you wish to die... And have even tried to hurt yourself, yet to all those thoughts, to all the de@th threats, you overcame them all, I am proud of you, my dear self.
You would always wonder, "what's it like to have friends...?" It's a wonderful feeling, really... You have made close, intimate relationships with a lovable few, and they are the best thing that has ever happened to me.
You were such a worrywart and quite sensitive, you always felt guilty of it and hurted yourself physically and mentally... Don't be so hard on yourself, and as of now, I can only slap myself and pull on my hair when am mad... But I won't hurt you ever again, I won't ever betray you, myself... I would never.
You are a handsome sweet boy Priyan... You will always be a man. Regardless of biological sex, your gender is it's own complex thing that surpasses beyond behaviour, personality, clothes, looks, voice, .etc
You are loved, my dear lad, you have people that will always be there for you.
Learn to let go Priyan... Let go off the past, let go off the mistakes you made, you are now an even kinder person to yourself than you once were, and I am proud of you, your mistakes made me grow into the nicer, calmer man I am now.
I love you , myself... I will make you proud 🖤 I will make all of this fighting worth it in the end... I won't take my own life 🖤 we will live on and find more flowers as the path of life extends. <33
- your lovingly, your 15 year old self