TW for self harm and abuse

I hate my mom so much. I hate her. she makes me so mad and she doesn't care about me. I was gasping for air infront of her because I could breathe due to hyperventilating and she told me to stop being dramatic. dramatic? I was crying and couldn't breathe because you made me throw away the trinkets I made that brought me joy, you make me pull my hair out and bite myself and cut myself. you make me feel fucking horrible. but I can't even get mad at you because you've done so much for me. im an inconviniece. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you.