So I get that with everything going on rn this probably is the least of y'all's concerns but I'm going on break.

I was talking with my mom earlier and we were talking abt my crush bc I brought up the topic and since we were friends last year (like rlly good friends) but we don't talk this year, and since whenever I see him, I panic and look the other way since I get nervous since I REALLY like him- like I've never liked ANYONE like this before, obviously I'm gonna get nervous. but today when my friend was walking next to him since they were both sent to a diff class because they didnt finish a test, I was gonna wave to my friend but didn't see he was next to her and when I saw him look at me, I put my hand back down and looked away rlly quick- I told my mom abt that and she said "Oh *name*, he probably thinks you hate him now since youre basically avoiding him," and when she said that something in my heart just shattered (don't hate on my mom I understand what she means) but it really got me thinking- like wow I've liked this guy for almost 5 or 6 months now, we used to be so close, but now we don't talk and I act like I hate him, what's wrong with me??? so that really got me thinking and I just have a lot of work I need to catch up on in school so that's also why I'm going on break but I just need time.. my brain and heart just hurt from all of this stress and I need to recollect and all that.

Thank you for understanding
-Invder0